riots of emotions

i don't 'think'
i am a 'thought'
i is somebody,not me,the me they see
thoughts born,live and die,
i watch and i listen
this grey matter of mine like to play tricks sometime...

these visions of her,
always ruling my mind
she is my Queen of spades,
that fabulous sea-mermaid
she's fine and she's here,
she's smiling and she's laughing
i sight,i hear,i see,i feel and breathe in them
shame on these electric pulses in ma mind,
also tell me she's not here.
i had nothing but 'heart' on me,
you took it all away...
who would save my soul now,
finding comfort in pain
I'm so cold from fear...


a symphony stirs in the depths,
waves of love were the starting,
cyclones of pain are the ending...

oh,the riots of emotions...
ahhh.. tears and rain
I have totally forgotten what salvation is like,
still drinking from my broken cup..

so??

it flows from spout to porcelain
and it hasn't rained like this in days
i'm a cold sweat in an awkward pause
but we all fumble for perfect words

where's the phrase thats going to turn her
as they all delve deep into pockets for the scrap of paper
carved with passion
that will no doubt ease their longing

another toast(milk) to this wet plant
who knows without knowing
the blindest eyes can hear the truth we miss between syllables

but no ones blessed or rested
we're all just serving time
and you can't dig forgiveness
without fucking up the perfect crime

another sleepless night of memories

Those days those times
drowning in delight
didn't look at my watch once
pretend you heard it in a movie,
no time passes like the time we passed it up
and night talks have a way about themselves.
i can't fade the moments
Me won't let Me
you with me
bloody, messy romance
it clings to me, Always
i feel the pain I've put you through
but i'm in love with only You

you not with me now
a fact that gleams
the way the memory replays itself
begins to hurt my eyes
and my muscles like a burning

I still dream that
someday wind will back me,
And she'll embrace me as her own
I'll think back on all I've left behind
Laughing, thinking on all I still have

can't quite grip this,
suspicious eyelids blinking
to keep the light out in turn

taking leave of boundless love,
i'd shudder to think of how
but tomorrow there'll be loneliness,
and it all seems darker now

i think love is like sand,
the way it behaves as it falls through hands.
this Road was never meant to end
these who are Strangers now, were old friends.

i think that i have cried in the past couple of days over some such silliness that left my life so hollow feeling
this isn't a poem
it isn't a story,it isn't anything creative
i hope that i'm dumb sometimes and i just don't see the shit

going to cry myself to sleep with the light off...
stupid
stupid
nearly forgot to wish my dear ones..
Sid,Ashu,Mujji,Anshu,Akhil,sheetal,shilki and sukku.
i know you are always there for me whatever happens.
Happy Friendship day to all of you.