My love

My love for her has left me with a sense that time has become deranged.sometimes i am carried along by currents of love between fantasies and actuality,between "then" and "now" with amazing ease.
caught between him and her,i don't know what it is to be happy :(


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The TaG
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I was tagged by PHOENIX

1. Name five of your all time favorite movies.

Hindi ones :

Maine Pyaar kiya
Jaan-E-Mann: Let's Fall in Love... Again
Mughal-E-Azam
Dil Chahta hai
Rang De Basanti


English Ones :

SAW
Face Off
REVOLVER
rocky
Munich
and i have to name this too,one of the most loveliest movies i have seen
The NoteBook

2. Name one movie which you recommend as a "must see".
Peaceful Warrior

3. one and only one movie that you have seen many times.[watching on TV wont count]
REVOLVER

4.which movie comes to your mind when i say funniest?
American Pie

5.which movie made you really emotional?
Parzania

6.which movie series was as interesting as the first part?
Final Destination

7.which movie didnt, according to you, live up to your expectations?
Hancock --low level

8.which movie surprised you?
I'm Not There

and i TAG
Sameera
preeti
hope
enchanted
Oxy
siddharth
mayz
Zubin

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P.S.
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you have read the tag but that doesn't mean you can escape not commenting about the three line above :D
another thing...i have a Guitar Now (thanks to Shikher)
cheers :D

my choices,my mistakes

A smell of change,
felt it on the breeze
rainy days have passed
she is slipping far
like a raindrop released by the cloud
such a small price to pay
to shine like the sun
to fly like an albatross
to taste the glory,
i will chase what i want
i am the creator,the destroyer,
the angel,the devil of my story
I can be the King or the shepherd
my choices,my mistakes
is all that it takes.

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THE TAG
phoenix tagged me.Thank you.It's my second tag :)
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I am - Mr.V,Mr. I Have My Own Plans,Mr. Bad Attitude(in a nutshell i have thousand personalities, thousand tricks up my sleeve,thousand reasons to believe,thousand reasons to lie,thousand reasons to fly,thousand reasons to sleep,thousand reasons to cry,thousand reasons to laugh,thousand reasons to live,thousand reasons to die,thousand reasons to write and thousand reasons to stop ).
(*devilish grins* that was totally random..ehehe)

I hate - backstabbers-backbiting people,my enemies(there's 1,and he'll die) and religions.

I hear - compliments :D & careless whispers !

I sing- Ay Kya Bolti Tu...hehe :D

I cry- when i watch movies :(

I write- whatever my gray matter(or whatever is left of it) tells me to do.

I always- at home and thinking about a lot of things in my life.

I dont always- say what i want to :)

I listen- James blunt,Linking park,Dido,Coldplay,Boney m,Enrique....too long to type.

I can usually be found- in my room sleeping ;)

I am happy about- my choices (an irony that i am unhappy about them too).

i tag hope,cinderella.,preeti.
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P.S.
Got my IELTS result
I got 6.5.I expected more from myself though.
Anyways i got it without any coaching or practicing past papers.
One of my friend did 1 month coaching and practiced daily.. for what??5.5.
I am so happy but i know it could have been better.
Don't forget to follow me and become one of my enthusiasts.
Take Care and have a nice day :)

speechless ..ey?

This will be a long one
Part One -->usual stuff !
Part Two --> the subconsciousness chats !
Part Three --> tag of desktop and quotes !Thanks To sis sameera.
enjoy guys !

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{Number One }
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These days
the earth and coldness of it
that rain from her direction

attitude pulled up
forcing the pain beneath smiles
life moves on
fighting the demons of misery

the majestic sway of grass
vacuity of lapsing days
like eyelids coming down

a lunatic
singing and listening
those love songs

even the moon appear lethargic
particularly in deceased night
a nonexistent commitment
like the thrilling quality of these twinkling points of light
like the ornament of pain in the rain
something in what the darkness does to these twinklers
something in what the rain does to the heart.

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{Number Two}
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the juice of love
and he drank it
in those days
the memorable ones
he used to weep
the way people weep
when tortured inside
grasping,fighting
finding the way
still hasn't stopped

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{TaLKs with subconsciousness}
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I am standing up
I am listening
I have been low for too long now
I was lost in his dreams
time to reclaim myself from him
it's time for transition
the ideas are glistening

sub:" You are weakling."
Me:"I know i am.so what..ever1 is."
sub:"I know why you did it. I know you were afraid. Who wouldn't be?"
Me:"I'm tired of this one sided relationship. It doesn't matter what went wrong, because frankly, nothing did... That is just it; Nothing did...! So, I'm cutting all ties; no more thoughts on her or the non-existing relationship. I'm going to move on and think of all the other possibilities out there; people, places and things to do. It's been nice knowing her and if our paths cross again, then so be it... Life must go on... No worries...its been many a moon!!!"
sub:"Simple maybe, but not easy. "
Me: "i can try.."
sub:"If only I could be sure you're as honest as you sound, but then with a collar around your neck... it's hard to tell whether your throat's blushing from passion or deceit. You should stop and be ashamed of what you are doing. The dignity of your love is at stake."
Me:"Do not mistake my love for your pride. Do not be afraid of the truth, if you don't want to be a slave."
sub:"The truth will kill you! "
Me:"It will set you free. "
sub:"You know, fuck you... I guide you so don't give me any crap! "
Me:"I'm not scared of you."
sub:"You really shouldn't have said that."
Me:"you've got to relax."
sub:"Don't you tell me to relax, goddammit!You're a coward.You don't talk to me like that. You understand, traitor?"
Me:"I understand the kind of pressure you're under. Only unfulfilled love can be romantic."
sub:"No, you are in the dark where a sword is just a long knife. you'll beg for me to guide you to light."
Me:"I prefer the dark."
sub:"what's the matter? You ain't scared?"
Me:"Of course I'm not scared."
sub:"Picture this,You have no real family, you're on the wrong side of 30, childless and alone. Somebody close to you said " it's over for you now."
Me:"Somebody said they were close to me? "
sub:"I can't help you now.one day you'll be a dying star. A white dwarf headed for a black hole. That's physics. It's inevitable. "
Me:"Till that day i will live with no regrets..taking on anything that comes my way.You will watch me conquering each and every obstacle on the path.Join me and i'll take you on a roller coaster ride."
sub:"I won't push you..."
Me:"Yeah, I'd appreciate that. "


Now, the only person who could make a difference before, will make a difference again! yeah you guessed it right that person is ME!


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{My D3SKTOP}
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Downed it from Deviant some 5-months back
haven't felt the need to change it.
it's so unique...i love it.



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{Favorite Quotes}
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1.
The great essentials of happiness are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for. — Unknown.

2.
Moral fiber. So, what is moral fiber? It's funny, I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically being a fucking boy scout. But lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think moral fiber's about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean. You know what? It doesn't matter. Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze. That's what moral fiber's all about.

3.
what's the craziest thing you've done lately?

4.
If you argue correctly you are never wrong.

5.
It's so easy to think about love, to talk about love, to wish for love. But it's not always easy to recognize love, even when we already hold it in our hands. Would you go for someone who loves you but for you he's only a friend or would you rather go for someone you love but for him you're only a friend? You have to give him a second chance because you love him. And because whoever said that "plenty of fish in the sea" thing was lying. Sometimes, there is only one.

6.
Love? It's kinda complicated but I'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make someone else happy, that's love right there! Don't find love, let love find you.
That's why it's called falling in love coz you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall.
Just when you think you've got it all figured out, you do the dumbest thing you possibly could... you fall in love.

7.
"In certain extreme situations, the law is inadequate. In order to shame its inadequacy, it is necessary to act outside the law. To pursue... natural justice.
This is not vengeance. Revenge is not a valid motive, it's an emotional response. No. Not vengeance. Punishment."

There are more i like but for now i think seven are enough !!!

BtW this was my first tag and i loved it.Hope you guys enjoyed my talks with my subconsciousness!
I am tagging Gagan,Preeti,Phoenix,hope,cinderella. and Mayz.