near and distant

floating around
listening to roxy sounds
dead mind is plain blank
the parity of clouds
when they spit,they scream
scattered drops,lightning and the flakes
making hissing noises
they fall,they touch,
silently into the night
pulsing perception
relations and bonds
both near and distant
reasons and causes
have similar patterns


You know, I had a pimple om my nose when I was a teenager and I tried
so hard to cover it up, and then years later I had another pimple and I
didn't feel like covering it up at all. That's the difference between
being 18 and being where i am now. I was so busy covering my
insecurities that it made them stick out more. Today I just walk in and
announce them.so let me talk about moving on...
Sure I've thought about it.If I could ever meet the right sort of girl.
Aw, where you gonna find her? Somebody that's real. Somebody that's
alive. They don't come that way anymore. Have I ever thought about it?
I've even been sucker enough to make plans. You know, I saw picture of
a resort in mexico on facebook once. I've never been able to forget it.
That's where I'd like to take her. She'd have to be the sort of a girl
who'd... well, who'd jump in the surf with me and love it as much as I
did. You know, nights when you and the moon and the water all become
one. You feel you're part of something big and marvelous. That's the
only place to live... where the stars are so close over your head you
feel you could reach up and stir them around. Certainly, I've been
thinking about it. Boy, if I could ever find a girl who was hungry for
those things...
It's just that anytime I hang on to any bit of hope it slips away from me.
When your life is defined by a single action, it changes the concept of time.
when i was child,i thought being brave meant that you had to take action.
That to have a dream and get forward in life you need courage.
But the only thing you need courage for, is for standing still.
if i had to,
I’d wipe out the whole planet to get her back.

be the knowledge
be the drop
that fills the ocean
upto the brim
that moment,that instant
the heaven belongs to you

the one

tender voice,a feather's touch,
of one not there,
the one invisible in thoughts

raindrops kissing soft hair,
soft palms,heavenly eyes,
of one not there,
the one invisible in rains

puffed eyes,unseeing all
raindrops playing with heart
he's the one right there
the one with rainy thoughts

outstretched arms,awaiting a hug
broken spirit,forgotten smiles
he's the one right there
the one waiting in the rain.

It hurts..

It hurts,
I feel like I've lost something precious
feels like she'll never come back
As another night sky falls
It all feels like wasted time

why others have it so easy
Their delightful bliss of profound ignorance
They fear not the judgment of their own pain
With impunity, they flaunt the gifts of Fate

I sit here and wonder
Why i lost her?
And if she'll ever come back?
Another dawn kisses the sky
Why do I keep wasting so much time?


There's not much left to say
One step has been taken &
Two left behind

tumbling through...the rain has fallen

heard somewhere once...
Inaction leads to A dreadful welling up of Painful memories.


it all goes wrong again
the rain has fallen
and all I'm left with is
Its bitter taste

i was murdered yesterday by my own
i shouldn't speak it

a stolen whisper
i found it on the tongue of girl that i love

for sure i can say now..this is just a theory
That you can live on love alone

You can live and survive
On unrequited love alone

So now, when things seem bleakest
I can become a myself again

teardrops in my hands had been in my eyes for quite some time.

by chance one of my Playboy friends "Mohit" called up.I let it all out and asked dude how can u be like this and i am not.You play with emotions you get away and i love purely for what...to deserve this.
He said just remember: "when you see that star shining at its
brightest, its already been dead for a thousand years."Then he told me his story.And that eased me down.
So I'll keep it here right where it stands
Hold my fears close
Bottled up tight.

I had a dream
to touch her face gently
and run my fingers through her hair
was an image in my mind..and now it will remain so.
One day like everything this image will get blurred too.