Concious

it talked again-- No you're not perfect. Nobody is, especially the people judging you. They can only be happy if they make other peoples lives miserable. Be you. Do what you want to do. **** those people, they're haters. The only people who you need to care about is your friends and family. You're beautiful, inside and out.

IT's been a long time since i last agreed with it's sayings.

exams ova !!

Aha...at last it ended ..end of a perfect day.The head is not full of any trouble and i am thinking about doing something evil and listening to my favorite music.There was a time not so long ago when I was master of everything I surveyed,there was a time I did it my way.I'll do things my way again...it's a desire!

the truth..........

Everything rests upon me like the pearls strung to a thread..

anguish

he doesn't know why
he wakes up each day
And continues to cry...........

Voices in ma head...

Sometimes i hear that voice, it's talking out loud to me
Sometimes it whistles while i am walking How could it know any better?

Gobbled by Cryptography..

Got late in reaching the examination room.As soon as i read Question paper,at first i wanted get up and start screaming but, i coudn't move i felt like i wuz pariliyzed . finally i started writing in my answer sheet but the hand was just not moving fast enough on the sheet ,i tried but the answers would just not come ..but i carried on writing anything related to question i knew for half an hour or so and then it started again... a few pauses...then i couldn't stand it ! i wanted to get out so bad but i couldn't i had to stay in examination room till 1:oo ( thats when the examination was ova).
so thanx 4 reading i had to let my feelings out on the fact this just happened last day!And i am totally disappointed with myself !Cryptography exam went so bad..though i am calm. Kinda like the calm before the storm. So, this is the worst I’ve ever felt after giving an exam and this was most definitely the worst thrusday of my life. I'm just still in shock that I went through this, I'm actually angry at myself.
I am not going to pass this one i think...and miracles don't exist in ma dictionary.
How could i do good in exams when 97% of my brain is devoted to global domination… I purge all irrelevant information to make room for the important stuff… like how to breath and such. Unfortunately, this means there’s no room for anything else in my head.

Bad Day Today...

Bad Bad day today..i should have know that it was temerarious to believe in our teacher.
Teachers in my college are so fallible and i am absolutely candor in saying that.
i am always so lissom in action but this time i was caught sleeping.
it's nettlesome & eliciting my anger which i am not going to repress.It's not that i abominate them,well i do but a little less , it's just that i lost around 60 marks in today's exam because of our teacher's stupidness.

Two exams gone

of all the vast mountains of knowledge that yet i haven't scaled this slope is one of the most slippery ..have to be careful.

restless..........

its' very difficult to curb this restless mind.Which keeps me awake and takes me on ventures(dreams) that i wish to accomplish.One day ...mayhap soon i will learn the art.

It's There..

it's 9:30 a.m. and 28th of the month.Tomorrow i have my Visual Basic Final exam of this semester and i haven't even picked up the book.I don't know what will happen as the paper would not be easy.The problem is not that it's that i am still not feeling like studying.Y??? i myself have no idea.

Both of my Practicals on 24th and 25th went well.Especially the second practical of Computer Graphics the examiner was full of praises for me.I learned that he gave me the highest marks.Happy for myself there although i was not so good but i was better than everybody else.

Tomorrow is scaring me ...Will write one or two line tomorrow when i come back.
Hope that i start studying by evening.

oh my gad...

this post took so long to come...and i didn't even realized it...last few days i haven't done anything constructive but even then they just went by so quickly.
and everyone says so that i'll do gr8 ..but you know the pressure is too much ..and i i am getting totally bogged down ..anyways ...a lot has been going on in my mind for some time now.

Haven't Completed any subject till now and the exams are so close..wasted so many days and with them wasted so many chances to make so many things right.The exams are starting from 24th May and will be tormenting me till 14th June this is going to one hell of a ride his time..keeping my fingers crossed (although i don't believe in these superstitious things :-)).

I guess it's all upto me now.

Ps: One of my old friend came back after we broke up last March,and i am really excited about it. lol...