it's like this

it's the fierce shift between forth and fifth,
keys change , heads lift ,
and tomorrow's sorrows like a subtle lisp ...

as another love subtly rolls by,
his tender heart silently cries,
and you ask what's it's like ?

anyone can write ,  it's ink on paper and experiences in life,
placed and paced down over extensive devotion of movements of emotions...

there's a time for us all ,
a time to stand down and fall ,
and I am all about not giving up
but
love has it's way of seeping in whether i like it or not
and now I am convinced
that I've found you
and time is at its best

simple things love ,
simple things ,
like your shoes ...
like my eyes
and the way they shine
when you're reflected in them,
all the wine and time
where the faces blur
but you know
you're a prodigy like
wind through the hair
or the memory scents
in fresh cut grass
and the child like ways that linger there
and the children's care free childhood cares


someone , if they could please tell her , to not take so much time,
just in case if she wants to grace this heart ,
for more then the time
it takes for me to
wait...

because I am tired,
but still I am convinced that I've found you ,
oh the distractions of those memory scents
makes one want to exist but...
wait ..
it's like this ...

Written for the OctPoWriMo

A beautiful dream

intoxicating incense in my room,
a pink flower lying beside me
He kept looking ,
smiling and telling her she was beautiful
folded elbows, carefree talks,
gazing in her eyes for an instant or an eternity

in-between coffee sips we make time,
to casually kiss
like it means nothing,
maybe it doesn't,
or maybe it means everything,
maybe my thoughts are confused
but my eyes see you eyeing,
I see the color in your cheeks,
when I slide my fingers over yours,
and plant soft kissed on your hands
your smile is high and rising
A dream came true in this dream,
a beautiful soul to which he must adapt
you are eyes and mind,
and words over words,
and no one can love enough
to deserve a soul as beautiful as you.

she's,

she's a heavenly thought
her heart is pure in billion distinct ways
like a searchlight,sparkling in my eye
she's pure like the touch of drops
like childhood sunsets
She's that time of the night
when everything is soaked in moonlight

she's a memory,i hope to create

...she's an arrow shot in the dark,...straight through my heart.

36-carrat diamond

In the darkness he lives, the loveless and the lovelorn.
Sometimes it's like i am already in hell
made a reservation unknowingly long ago
love is like a
36-carrat diamond-studded solid gold riddle.
There's some part of me that cannot accept that i should give up...
i remember how happy i used to be. i need to restore it.To change things i would need to change myself first.i have a gr8 career ahead of me and in my heart all i want is peace.when i die...i want to die knowing myself.i got things to go and places to do

I need to smile a little and let sunshine in
life is good..i just need to see it.
already on the verge of the brink
maybe i am not reading the situation exactly right.
how much can i live with
how less can i die with

I ask "So does time changes you?"
he whispers "sure,u grow older"

screwed

my sis from Canada says that i am ruining my life
and i am ruining it myself?
she says be friends with her...
tell her that u have moved on

should i lie? ..i am so screwed..
i can't shoot the puppy

Mr.noplan

voluminous love can feed hunger
the hunger of deeply demanding mind
now he's like Mr.noplan Mr. nowhere
there ain't no destination
the path ain't clear
even the sweets are sour
no gleam,no glow,no happy show
in time what's love he will know
there's no tellin what can happen....

joyce said "The best proof of love is trust."
he trusts her...but does she??
Friendship often ends in love...he thought so too.

If there exists anything like souls, then the ingredients of, hers and mine are the same.
wish I wasn't crying all the time, but... I am.All i want is her
to be with me. y am i so selfish?is it rain?is it my ego?


ps :-
Soon it's his big day. is he ready for it?... am i
ready for it?
he has to get up in d morning
he'll catch the bus to jalandhar,Punjab
he has his exams on 21st (three of them) and 23rd.
he won't be here for few days
and he doesn't know when he'll come back
best of luck to him for the exams.He needs to pass it,to runaway from land of rains and pains.
he will miss all of you...i don't know what he'll do all these days without u guys..
shit...he's so attached to this place..a week off would really hurt him.
With sleep dust still in my eyes i am off to sleep now.Hope he sleeps too...have a long 15 hour journey ahead.
tc guys will be back in 7-8 days..keep rocking and miss me and rains. :)

rainy times

the sound of the rain crashing down
mowing this polluted town
rainwater is all around
it moves rhythmically on the ground
rain-drops producing sounds lovable to mind
rain engulfed horizon
he watches it with coffee in his hand
on incomputable rainy days
on incomputable rainy nights
ah.. these rainy times

in rains he dreams
of the love streams
bathing in thoughts
acting like a mime
feeling low and high
both at the same time
ah..these rainy times

beneath a thousand drops he stands
to absorb???to release???
how can i know what he thinks
he's not the him i knew
Mr.wild and free,Mr.heart of gold
locked like a cage,sold for a dime
breathless i rhyme
ah..these rainy times

he patiently punishes himself
thinking of those times
trying to finish the puzzle
with all the pieces he can find
living those tragic moments,the tragic loss
that stuck dagger tore more through his heart
can rain dilute this?
..this what he feels.
ah..these rainy times

wave after wave of rains
washes away the pains
he needs to get out of these trains
still he refrains
pain drains thorough the cracks in his heart
eyes weep tears seep
ah..these rainy times


P.s. Here's a quote from the movie "Amazing grace"

"why is it that you only feel the thorns in your feet,,when you stop running."
y that is ..I'll never fully understand.

craving for luv

these thoughts are like crackers
the innerspring shatters
and he places his head against the wall,
remembering those days of fun and fall
no route no path b/w myself
ahh..the dirges of missed love

To cover his thoughts
he trys to refurbish this broken heart
this vast unending overgrowing craving for love
engulfing overpowering drowning him,
filling the heart upto the brim
slowly scratching the inside walls,
looking for relevance malls

does he believes?
in himself, his cause?
looking at the horizon
having no destination.
I hope he can convince me.



P.S. --read this quote somewhere and had to share...
""Once hanged man feels invincible
twice hanged, and he finds truth
learns to keep reptile eyed friends
at arms length.""

i remember

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Playing in the rain
The peace of mind
And joy of heart
I remember

first day of college                       \\ Aug 2003
watched "Tere naam"               \\while my classmates were ragged ..haw haw
that spoiled brat
i remember

small class
32 students
6 rows 2 columns
i remember

the teddybear
the hitler
the sisters
i remember

skipping lectures
failing maths
hating teachers
i remember

the little canteen
the birthdays
the soft drinks,the pastry's
the cornettos
i remember

the lunch breaks
the fighting for my mom's maggi
sukku's lassi,Akhil's dhokla,
shilki's red-chilly achar,sheetal's sandwiches
i remember

and even the bus
Where we should have fallen in love
those fights,the "ram-ladoo's"
i remember


She wanted to say but didn't have the nerve
A half smile crosses my lips
I remember.
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P.S.
It was supposed to be more
Wherever you are
There's far too much of me in there.

still raining

An hour ago i was on roof
standing in the rain
mind at peace
heart full of sadness

remembering that day when i told her
I am coming
Crossing the state line
traveling until dawn
But I never found the time

we all should know in every Color every Dream is tainted.
I'm still as lonely as the time i followed suit
and i know that nothings coming out of this
but the taste of bitter fruit

The call

Cell in his hand,
just pressed the keys
Will you pick up?
I've got a thousand questions
All on my time and dime

"Do you want to run away?
Do you want to see the world?
How about an hour with me?
Or a walk in the rain?"

Cell in his hand,
Waiting for the nerve
Things get so quiet 'round here now
miles away
Someone whispers your name...

"Have you ever seen the sea?
What about those stars in the sky?
Ever climb a tall tree?"

The line is ringing now
Choking down the excitement
Fighting back the fear

I can't remember the sound of her voice
Now it'll be so silly and small
I still remember the scent on the air
As she passed by and by
Things get so quiet 'round here now
I wanted to kiss you when you cried...

Impatient buzzing
A ring, a pause
then
"Hello?"
Greets this tired heart
A smile
"Hello."

can't let go

i am still sticking with her
coz she's the nearest to my heart
coz she's my girl of my dreams
coz she's the smell of happiness

i can't imagine myself without her..hope she's not taken away from me
anything that she might do
i might do that too

is that what i really expect to happen??
can two people stay happy together forever??
would those people would ever be given a chance to find that out??